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Saturday, April 23, 2005

9:08 PM

Wad da fark is wrong wif me?
Why am i pushin everyone away?
Why do i keep hurtin ppl who cares abt me?

i've said so many harsh things to so many ppl.
Wad goes around, comes around.

Am i so Cruel?
So heartless?
bitch.

in e mood for serious damage.

&the beauty.

9:23 PM

today was e first day of attachment. hmmm. it was so damn bored dat i thot i could jus faint. well, i erm, almost did. like usual, i was late so i didnt eat breakfast before going for work which as usual was a very bad idea. Luckily didnt actually faint courtesy of nad's mentos. Hehe.

there were more students nurses den e patients. Wad da hell. we had nothin to do so in e end me n nad were gossipin abt e ppl there. Haha. We love to do role plays.

Dunno wad else to say coz its been such a freakin boring day.

And Nad, please tame ur hair. =P

p.S: She said she love me. Woohoo!

&the beauty.

8:56 PM

hmm... today such a boring day.. in e mornin, went out to eat wif my family at century square, get so bingit wif my hp for being jammed! fuckerneneh. When at home, all i do is sleep, eat, sms, talk on fone, sleep n eat.. dats all i do. No wonder i'm dis size. =]

Last friday, i spent all day wif nad n mali coz at nite got BBQ at east coast. Went to mali's house after exam.. den jus lepak there the whole afternoon.. the three of us was sleepin on e bed, well its e two of dem ah.. i was busy on da fone.. den mali was so hardworkin n she cook everything.. while me n nad merepek in e bedroom.. ahemz.. hehe..

e BBQ was okay i guess. Lots of food n stuff n also ppl.. Was so stressed out dat time, keep on havin to go toilet to do big business.. must be e uncooked chicken dat i ate. Met Izz n Edd. Den after dat, went to meet kin, suzie, fiz, ee n lia.. wah so kecoh.. haha.. i was so shagged coz e nite before i only slept for 1 hour so i went back early. Reach home around 11 plus...

Such an interesting day.

&the beauty.

9:38 PM

Yay.Tmr my last paper. Den after dat finally got to enjoy. Wait....... damn. i cant enjoy thanks to e attachment dats comin up next week. Well... enjoy the weekend while i still can den.

There's dis weird feelin inside me. Its so weird dat its freaky. And dat feelin is the feelin of becoming straight, of gettin out of all dis lesbian thingy. I neva thought i would feel dis way at e peak of lesbian life... Haha.. fuckerneneh.

How i wish there's dis guy who would jus swept me off my feet. I dun wan to hide my relationship no more. I jus wan a prince charmin, who's caring n love me and we could live happily ever after.

Is dat too much to ask?

&the beauty.

8:44 PM

Today was such a freakin busy day. Went to my cousin's wedding den had to help out a lot!!! but its so fun and i got such a feeling of nostalgia.. hehe.. everybody is like all grown up.... wah~ how time flies.

Den everybody was like askin me when my turn.. hakhak.. my turn?! fuckerneneh. it does make me wants to get married.. hehe.. Wad da hell.

eh, aren't i suppose to be studying? sheesh.

&the beauty.

10:45 PM

i'm so way laggin behind my studies.. i should be studyin now but i'm jus so fweakin tired.. haiz. damn. Why must they make us take exams? dat is e question i ask myself every semester... which i still haven find the answer. when i have e time, den i'll update more.. for now, toodles ~

And when i need you,
you're almost here and
I know dat, dat's not enough.
And when i'm wif you,
i'm close to tears
coz you're only almost here.

&the beauty.

5:35 PM

Nad say not to be dependent on ur gf coz in e end, when they leave u, u're e one who's gonna suffer. I obviously didnt listen to dat advice..

Edd's my everything.
My bestest fren.
My love.
My pillar of support.
My Happiness.
And of coz, My life.

She's e love dat i've ever known.
E one dat cares for me.
E one dat i gave my heart to.
E love of my life.

And now she's gone,
words cant describe e loss dat i felt,
e emptiness in my life,
e tears in my eyes,
e pain in my heart.

imissedyoulikecrazy.

&the beauty.

10:53 PM

fuck you.
You keep on messin my life over and over again.
You dun fuckin care abt my feelins.
You keep sayin wateva shit dat u say.

And you know wad.
dis time i dun fuckin care.
i'm not gonna come back to u if u keep doin dis shit.

FArk it. You're makin me hate you.

&the beauty.

3:50 PM

heya peeps.... i'm so freakin bored.. at skool rite now waitin for edd to finish... today e last day of skool den next week is study break... gotta study real hard so i can get all As... (like freakin real).

i've been seriusly gainin weight nowadays so i betta exercise my ass off so i can fit into my nurse uniform which brings me to today's topic wic is abt : nurse uniform.

Do they consider nurse uniform kinky or wad? i dun get it.. wads so sexy or kinky abt a nurse uniform and i still dun get it why e heck am i talkin abt nurse uniform rite now. damn. i'm jus f**king bored...

i better stop now before i get even more lame-o by e day.. sheesh..

P.S: i jus wan to proclaim my undying love n loyalty towards..... Ben & Jerry ice cream(cookie dough)..

&the beauty.