you're a mystery yourself
Yesterday was like a food fest for me. Went over her house early in e morning and she cooked for me hotdogs wif scrambled eggs. Aint That sweet?! No one cooked for me breakfast before and i was very touched. And hungry. In the afternoon, I ate chicken and coleslaw and went we went to Lucky plaza, i ate. Again. And at night, went to meet kakak at tamp to eat at fish n co. I cant believe i ate so many times and its freaking me out. At this rate, i wont be able to fit into my clothes anymore. That is pathetic. I so have to start working out tmr. Maybe next week. Jus make it next month. I jus love to procastinate.
And finally, she cut my hair for me. I was jus dozing off on e toilet seat, waiting for her to finish whatever that she was doing to my hair. I could see chunks of hair on the toilet floor. It kind of freaks me out not knowing how short she was cutting my hair but in the end, it turns out alright. My hair was jus trimmed. At least its not that irritating anymore. And yeah, she cut her hair too. So short, its nice. Jus have to be grateful its not bald. *grinz*
Do you throw away your longtime friend for a girlfriend that you've jus had? I dont get it. We've known each other for a long time. Almost two years. We had so much history together. You know all my shits, my behaviour. Basically just about everything. I didnt keep any secrets from you. We were even suppose to be the best of buddies. We even make a pact that we'll be buddies no matter what. And we wont let our girlfriends separate us. You even said you will find a girlfriend who's comfortable having me as your buddy. Its just empty promises. We've been drifting apart and apart. It seems as though it could never be the same anymore. I admit that I've been busy with my school and stuffs. But i did try to make time for our friendship and it wasn't just to share problems with you. And now, whenever i ask you to meet up, u keep brushing me off lots of times. All coz of your girlfriend. I have nothing against your girlfriend. I just dont want to lose your friendship. But you know i wont look for you anymore. I'm sick of you saying no.
&the beauty.
Sometimes real love can be
not seen Cause u're thinkin
Wads rite in front of you
can't be e one for you
Then one day you realise that
there are feelings that you cant hold back
And you're so caught up
All that talk of us not being able to last
Jus because of mistakes we made in e past
But they fail to understand..
I got you
And nobody can come to change a thing
cause u gotta know, u got me
And it feels so good to have your back now
I'm so proud I got you
Things are often said to doubt what i feel for you
But words that people say wont take my love away
Although it hurts sometimes, its alright.
But why they say somethings which aint right, i never know
*But you know i got you and you got me.*
&the beauty.
Dang. I've jus realised dat i have 4 freakin test coming up next week in one whole shot. How can i survive like dis?! luckily i dun have to work dis week so i'll jus have to spend time mugging n mugging n jus muggin for my papers.
Eek. E skin on my shoulders are peeling off! All thanks to getting burnt at Sentosa a week ago.
Cant wait to buy dat wakeboard n try my hands on wakeboarding.
Knowing fully well how clumsy i can be, i better mentally prepare myself. Yeah shaf.
Wait a min, shouldn't i be muggin rite now instead of bloggin?!
gtg.
&the beauty.
Oh man. Its been such a freaking long time since i've last updated. Due to my mouse problem, my comp had been down for weeks!! Thanks to baby who helped me solve e problem, i was able to update again. Oh i'm so lagging. There's so many things dat i want to write abt but there's seem to be too little time, n too little space. But nevermind, i'll jus write watever dat comes into my mind. I'm so gonna write abt events dat happened within these past weeks.
I had some problem wif my mom. SOme shits happen. But i'm so glad dat its over n done wif n dat now, we have a much better understanding wif each other. I could see e effort she put in, in trying to let me grow up n live my own life, trying to understand me n not to be so protective. I love her for dat and i appreciate it. It breaks my heart to see her shedding tears for me, thinkin wad she did wrong while bringin me up but ma, its not abt u, it has been abt me all dis while. I know i'm e one who's doing shits to u but u gotta let me go, let me learn from my own mistakes. I'm sorry i cant live my life e way u wan me to, i need space to grow up n learn n i know wads rite n wrong. Love u so much.
Two freaking weeks of attachment passed me by jus like dat. I used to think dat attachments are so boring but now, in my 2nd year i find it so interesting, n of coz very busy n tiring. But i still cant wait to get back to skool n get my tests, exams, practicals, projects all over n done wif. I admit it is kinda hard trying to juggle having to school, work, attachment n social life but yeah, i am coping n i'll prove to everyone dat i so can make it. I know i can. Hee. I miss liza n nad!!! Its like the three of us have different lives to lead but hey girls, i'm still thinking of ya.
Being wif her has been so great. Every single time, i went out wif her, is a new different thing. We'll go to a new place, do new stuffs n yeah i'm jus contented being wif her. Every waking min of my life, i'll be either smsing her, calling her, meetin her or jus plainly missing her. N there's neva a moment dat i stop thinking of her. Its jus e simple things dat she did for me. She solve my probs for me, know wad i'm thinkin, fed me so super well n she was there for me. Always. I dunno wad i'll do without her. Neva ever in my life, i thot of living together wif someone, n yet i'm thinking of dat possibility wif her. I so can see my future wif her n she said e same thing to me. Aint dat sweet. Last time, i thot dat dis kind of r/s will never last but i hope mine will. Its jus like a fairytale n baby, u;re rite, we ARE extreme ppl, we can either be extremely sad/angry/happy wif each other. Its such a rollercoaster experience wif u. I love dat u brought me places where i never knew before, jus to sit n talk. We can talk abt anything under e sun n its hard to find someone who can do dat. I love eating out wif u which is like an adventure every single time. U know wad i mean baby. And thanks for e socks, and e great time i had jus now.
Cant wait for e day when i finally get to move in wif u.
I'm glad i found u.
Till den.
&the beauty.
Oh i'm so freaking lazy. Instead of going to e lecture, i'm here at e library updatin my blog. I got freakin sore throat!! Oh i'm so not going for practical lab later. I've been juggling work n skool n my social life, n i cant believe it when someone who not even close to me, can come up to me and asked whether i can handle all dat. And e answer is yes, i can. I know u guys are all concerned abt me thinking dat i cant cope but again, i shall guarantee u dat i try my utmost best to make sure dat i'm not laggin behind in my studies n dat i'll passed all my modules. I admit dat i do have financial probs n dats y i had to take on a part time job. and IF its a mistake to take on e job, den i would rather learn it e hard way, at least i gain some experience and i would learn from my mistakes.
I'm an independent woman, remember. Rite.
Yesterday, spent e whole day at her house wif her n her sis. We were jus watchin tv, eat hotdogs n nuggets. Me n her even follow e sister go grocery shoppin. And it feels so good as though we're a family includin me.
&the beauty.
Heya peeps. I'm at skool rite now waiting for my next class. My comp spoilt so now i have to rely on e skool comp to update my blog. So much things have happen since den n i jus cant wait to pour everything out here.. *grinz*
Me n her spent a whole week together n wad i meant by dat is, we meet every single day for a week n we did spend the night together on weekends. It was so freAkin funnnnn to e core. And i absolutely dun have any regrets at all. And of all days, i love last sat e most coz i got to spend e whole day from mornin to e next mornin wif her. Woohoo. And gosh we spend money like water but still its all worth it. She pamper me like hell, anythin i wan or desire, she'll get it for me. I'm so lovin her. Went to wu bar wif her on sat, we went there too early so after we got e tag, we jus went walkin around to boat quay. Jus imagine me n her, walking n holding hands. Smiling n laughin. Jus spendin time together. We sat at our usual place n jus talked abt stuffs, anythin at all dat come to our mind. After dat we went back to wu bar, drink n dance like crazy. She was so freakin high at e dancefloor. SO cute. Haha. After wu bar, we went to hrc but it was no big deal. It was so packed dat we jus went in den out again. I had to pee lots of time n it was so freakin irritatin. Again, we went to chocolate bar n met nad, kak in n havoc. Nad mabok!! Haha. When she saw me, she was huggin me like crazy. Cant believe i got jealous when kak in grind at my baby. Some shits happen but i'm glad everythin work out in e end. yay.
Its really a great feelin to sleep beside e one u love, to cuddle up wif her n hear her breathe. To wake up beside her, n look at her sleepin. To jus want to savour e moment n wish dat time would jus stand still. And to never ever let go. Dats really happiness. And i'm feeling dat. She said to me dat she ever think of going overseas wif me, and living together to e extent of marryin wif me. And i looked at her n said, why not?
shit. gtg class. update more later.
&the beauty.
