you're a mystery yourself

Monday, January 16, 2006

9:57 PM

I cant help but feel abandoned sometimes. In front of your friends, I feel as though I dont seem to matter much. I know you care for me and that you love me. But when we're in front of your friends, its as though you're a different person. You would ask me to accompany you for awhile and when your friends came by along, you'll just breeze away without a backward glance. Or a kiss. Or a hug. Oh I'm just bitter.

It can be damn frustrating sometimes. Knowing that you've made mistakes and even when you tried to atone for your goddamn sins, it's just aint working. I know you dont trust me anymore and yet here I am trying to make up for it. Then came your hurtful words, crashing me and I fall. I tried to get back up again and there goes another blow of hurtful words and my heart got crushed again. And I feel as though I'm smothering, that I cant breathe. The current is sweeping me underwater and when I finally came up to the surface to gasp for air, something pull me down again.

I almost gave up. But when I think of all those sweet memories and how much I love you, I just cant afford to lose you again.

"I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines.We've been conditioned to not make mistakes but i cant live that way."

&the beauty.

Shaf. 31july.

I love the smell of rain and the feel of green grass

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