you're a mystery yourself

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

8:23 PM

i am too tired.

i had one hell of a day working. In e end, i finished work late thus missing a very important talk given by the hospital, which equals to me having to go back to work on 2nd day of raye just to attend a half an hour talk. And what makes things crazy was that i had to go back home, then drove to sembawang to give my kuihs to my in-laws, then drove back to tampines. and now, i've just finished cleaning up. sheesh.

on a random note, i lurrve family dinners. One thing that i love about ramadhan is that it forces us family to have dinner together, each and every one of us, despite our hectic schedules.

selamat hari raya everybody. =]

&the beauty.

10:48 PM

Someone once told me," I want a relationship that has brutal honesty, personal space, time for friends, and little acts of jealousy because we know that we can't stop from feeling jealous but we can stop ourselves from acting on it."

fortunately for me, after 2 years , i finally had that kind of relationship.

But unfortunately, i don't feel satisfied somehow and i can't figure out why. In total fairness, i am the one being completely shitty in this relationship. I'm like a stalker, keeping tabs on his daily activities, i even have his number on speed dial, and i'll constantly call him, just to irritate him. And i absolutely have no idea why the hell am i doing this.

i should be grateful that i have the kind of relationship that i've always wanted.

honestly, i think i'm confused. or just messed up.

&the beauty.

11:27 PM

i'm out of breath.i'm out of passion.

i feel like there's nothing else that could perked me up.

zilch. nada.

suddenly, i felt blue.

&the beauty.

11:14 PM

And when i need you,
you're almost here,
and i know that's not enough
and when i'm with you,
i'm close to tears cause you're only
almost here..

-almost here by delta goodrem n brian mcfadden.

i'm so loving this song at the moment.

&the beauty.

12:06 AM

these past few days, i havent been getting enough sleep. I think my body hormones and such are all messed up due to too much working, and less sleep. Not to mention that when i finally do fall asleep, i keep on dreaming some weird dreams.

on a brighter note, iftar with the lovely makciks was great. too much food, gossips and laughter. we meet once a month and still our friendship still stands. =]

yayness. do it again and again.

peace out.

&the beauty.

10:37 PM

its sucky how our work schedules totally differ and clashes. its so hard for me to meet you. and i miss you so much that i keep on dreaming of you.

and so when just now, you suprised me by showing up at my work, totally unannounced, well equipped with goodies, you really made my day. =] i couldn't stop smiling. At that moment of time, only god knows how i felt.

when you held me in your arms, i wished that you would never let go. and like i said, its hard to part with you.

so please dear, meet me soon. Before i go bonkers. =]

love you.

&the beauty.

1:39 PM

i hate having this sickening rashes. Sometimes it gets better then it gets worse. i swear i'm gonna go to the doctor if it doesnt get better tonight. haiz.

on the other hand, i'm coping better with fasting than i ever thought i could. which is a good thing.

Thank God.

&the beauty.

1:23 AM

Today marks the starting of the fasting month. I don't know why but this year i feel extra excited and motivated to start fasting and celebrate rayer. Heh.

There's so many things planned. and i hope i could achieve all of it. Time flies by too fast. Sometimes it feel that there's not enough time to do everything. But as long as i'm with you, i'm all set to face the world, with battle gear.

=]

&the beauty.