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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

6:20 PM

Me and the boy were having our dinner when i brought up the topic of a much dreaded affair. And all he did was to keep quiet. Then came upon a time when i actually asked him a question, and his answer was so honest and blunt and shockingly devastating, that i could feel the back of my eyes pricking with tears. I swear! Goodness me. I am blardy sensitive but i ought to be.

Cause he shouldn't have said what he said. Its like he blurted it out. Sometimes he's just too honest for his own good, a part of me actually wishes that he could pretend or lie or whatever. Goddamn arse.

These kind of things makes me rethink our whole relationship. Sometimes, i'm so sure, sometimes i have my doubts. We've been too long together. I guess i just wouldnt want to start all over again. Like someone previously told me, i've been too long in my comfort zone that i wouldn't dare to venture out. But then i know for sure that i love him.. its just that sometimes things doesn't go according to plan and that effing sucks.

i wished he would have a more definite plan for us.
i wished i know what he's really thinking.
For now, i'm the only enthusiast between us.

i hate doubts. They kill you.

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Shaf. 31july.

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