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Saturday, November 14, 2009

9:14 PM

i'm back. Sorta. =)

&the beauty.

4:58 PM

my heart is in pain.

I am so super duper broke to the core. i think i've never has been this broke ever since my diploma days.

i think its really all up to fate. I guess reversing my car into the railing and creating a dent in the bonnet, was written in destiny. Blardy hell. And now i wasted money on the repairs.

so this year, no more fake eyelashes. No highlighting of hair. No buying of expensive baju raya.

on the bright side, hopefully having iftar with nad n liza. hint hint. =]

&the beauty.

8:53 PM

first and foremost, selamat berpuasa to everyone.

i have not been updating cause i am just plain lazy. there's so many things happened and i just dont know where to start.

Me and the bf have just recently celebrated our 3rd year anniversary, it was great until a certain thing happened a few weeks ago that makes me think about us all over again. And it totally changes my perspective, of him, of us. i hate how he perceives me. And i can safely say that i'm changing. Turning to be some sort of hardened shrivelled up old woman who does not trust. Shucks. I dont effing care. Not anymore.

Next up will be school. Can't believe that i'm finishing school in lesser than 4 mths time and that feels good. Cause i know that i would like to constantly be upgrading myself. Seriously i wanna be the best that i can possibly can. Since getting married is not part of my plan at this moment of time, i might just be able to pursue my degree soon. If God willing.

Family has been just wonderful. There's nothing more I can say on that.

Friends. Some are there, some are not. Either way, all will be missed. =]

On random note, i can't wait for gummy's 21st bday. its gonna be a blast. hehe. i can think of all the eggy floury pranks.

&the beauty.

1:27 PM

I intended to log in to blogspot with stories to tell. But when i'm already logged in, i can't seem to remember what it is. I have a limited attention span i guess.

3 more days to my bio test and i'm so not ready. At this moment of time, i'm suppose to be studying for it but i'm.. procastinating like usual. I think i've lost my mojo. Speaking of mojo, i feel like sitting by the beach, sipping mojito. Ok fine, random.

i hate not having bonus this month.

&the beauty.

9:18 PM

loving the prada sunglasses that i hijacked. woohoo.

&the beauty.

9:50 PM

i am damn shagged.

i didn't even try this hard for my dip.

i'm too busy poring over books, sourcing for journals, got held up in the library. my timetable too packed with unnecessary lectures. I swear i'm going berserk. test is in three weeks time, and i'm cramming like crazy. which is so not me, cause i usually freak out the night before.

i'm so trying desperately to be a better person.

And its so not helping me in losing weight.

&the beauty.

9:24 AM

i'm terribly disappointed with myself.

i skipped my first tutorial ever, i just can't seem to make myself go to the class. And i state all the reasons in my head, but it still made me feel guilty. I have to keep reminding myself that this is not my diploma days.

Damn it.

I'm a dead duck.

&the beauty.