you're a mystery yourself

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

11:40 PM

sudah maafkan aku
segala salahku
dan bila kau tetap bisu
ungkapkan salahmu
dan aku, sifatku
dan aku, khilafku
dan aku, cintaku
dan aku, rinduku

sudah lupakan semua
segala berubah
dan kita berubah
dan kita terluka

Kutanya malam...
dapatkah kau lihatnya
Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu...

Oh hanya malam...
Dapat meleburkan segala rasa
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu

&the beauty.

10:49 PM

i've got a throbbing headache which i cant shake off. and panadol wont make it right.

i hate it that we cant celebrate ur birthday like we did with mine. i hate it that you have to serve the national and make it your first priority. i didnt mean to be selfish but i'm disappointed that i couldnt celebrate your birthday with the whole shebang.

and you said, that it wouldnt matter as long as i am with you.

and that makes everything looks brighter.

&the beauty.

5:49 AM

i'm at work, just an hour more till i can hit the bed. i am so blardy tired, and my back hurts like hell. i feel like an old woman, most probably look like one too.

i realise that there's so many things that i want to achieve that its almost unattainable.

i want to have a gym membership. and take up a new hobby like cross stitching or smtg. i want to develop muscles and get rid of that long existing tummy. i want to grow my nails so that i could go for a manicure. i want to finally start saving up money for rainy days. i want to own a car and drive wherever and whenever i please. Not to mention so that i can put as many plush cushions i can in the back seat. i have an obsession. i want to have a monthly gathering with my friends.

there's just too much and it seems like a neverending list but someday i will achieve it. as for now, my patients are calling me.

i am so random. full stop.

&the beauty.

6:29 PM

i am in need of a chocolate fix. and some massive retail therapy.

i am stressed out. and not because of work. Its more likely its because of the boy's bday. which is coming soon, and i have no idea what to get him. And i know that whatever suprises i plan will not happen since i have a habit of telling it before it happens. yes. spoilsport.

and my body is out of tune having work nights for so long. and its super duper tired.

yay pay day coming. -grins-

&the beauty.

1:22 PM

Ku anggapkan semalam
Satu kenangan yang suram
Bila cinta kita
Putus di jalan

Ku harapkan impian
Menjadi kenyataan
Namun aku kecewa

Mudahnya waktu melafazkan janji
Engkau dan aku berdua serupa
Rupanya mentari dalam mainan percintaan

Telahpun ku bentangkan segalanya
Mencari entah dimana silapnya
Jelas asmara kecundang jua

Bukan ku tak sudi kasih
Untuk bersamamu bercinta lagi
Kerna antara kita
Tidak sehaluan lagi

Maafkan diriku sayang
Menolak cintamu untuk kali ini
Walaupun ku tahu
Bersungguh benar rasa hatimu

&the beauty.

12:14 PM

time seems to flies extra fast this year. i am very happy and grateful for everything that i have.

and i wished it wont end. =]

slamat hari raya aidilfitri.

&the beauty.

7:46 PM

an elderly patient of mine asked me,

" dont you ever smile?"

i stared at him dumbfounded.

and he said,

"its just that you've been walking up and down, and you have this grim look on your face. The day would look so much brighter if you smile."

and so i did.

and the day did become much brighter. =]

yeyey. besok raye.

&the beauty.

8:10 PM

2months and 7days of real work.

a month plus since he served the national.

21more days to the boy's 21st.

5more days to hari raya.

i loike. =]

&the beauty.

12:26 PM

its frrrrrriday.

whoopeddoo. =]

&the beauty.