you're a mystery yourself

Thursday, October 30, 2008

11:50 AM

i'm two days late but who cares, here's to my 4th favourite boy in the world. =]

Like i said, words cannot describe how i feel about you.

Happy belated birthday sweetheart.

&the beauty.

8:56 PM

its so amazing how things could happen so fast.

then off to deea's bday bash..

sweetness. =]

&the beauty.

8:00 PM

i feel goodddddd.

cause i didnt have to go work. and i spent every minute doing absolutely nothing, just plain lazing around. i didnt even venture out of the house.. except for this one moment when i had a craving for ben&jerrys.

Then all came crashing down when i think of that unwritten memo that i have to submit to work. Its been 3 goddamn fweaking days.

sheesh.

&the beauty.

8:57 PM

i am contented nowadays. cause i get to meet the people who i care about. =]

the sentosa outing.

nadiah farhanah.

nurulshafilah

this is what makes us calm and settled.

so we catch up. on lives, partners, ambitions, work and such. Its a known fact between us that we will meet once in every few months. At least we take the time out of our busy schedule, just to meet up.

Nad: Lets go Europe next year.

me: Hell yeah. It would be so fun

nad: [excited] yeah, lets do it in august then. We can do so many things bla bla bla.

[after counting the expenses.]

nad: lets just go to phuket.

me: i think so too.

so nadfarhanah, i'll be seeing you again next year in March k. Remember our plans!

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a few days later, i get to meet my girls. though i was a few hours late.

ifah, raf, me, nad

the girls.

the girls and boys.

couples.

singless

smile.

eat galore

the lepak fest at shak's house

totally shagged out.

ok bye. i wanto sleep.

&the beauty.

11:06 PM

hell, i'm deluded.

and much in need of retail therapy.

&the beauty.

11:17 AM

Sometimes anger can get the better of you. It makes you react in a way which you normally won't do. Sometimes it will force you to make actions which later on, you will tend to suffer the consequences of it.

And when you're angry at the supposedly love of your life, you tend to think irrationally. Words have been said, things have been done. and i have no idea when will it all end. I wish someone would just slap me, mainly to stop making me act like a fool.

i wished i could take a step back and assess the damage that has been done, so that i know what will my next step be. But somehow my feet wouldn't move. So i'm stuck here, in the same position, over and over again. Its as though i'm reliving my nightmare over and over.

so just stop it. and leave me alone.

&the beauty.

8:26 AM

the boy who makes me cry, laugh, smile, pissed and frown.
the one who has my heart in his hands. =]

&the beauty.

3:55 PM

Have you ever felt crappy, as though you're gonna fall sick and the world seems to be spinning around.

Well, i did. and it sucks. Last night when i was working my night shift, i felt so damn sick, my throat feels sore, my whole body aches and just the mere thought of lifting my arms makes it hurt. It felt like as though i'm having the flu. Which i think i was.

But thank god, now i feel so much better. Alhamdullilah.

So now let us pray for my grandma to get better.

&the beauty.

9:40 PM

First day of raya.

i am now happily and safely secure in front of the comp. The first day of raya always makes me feel excited, seeing the relatives that i love, catching up with those that i barely see and making empty promises to keep on having regular meets up. you get the picture.

Speaking of pictures, here are some. =]

the best smiley pic. Faiz.

my family.

Me. Taufik-the one who could crack me up.

the best three.

sweetiepies.

my bitch.

my lovelies.

i can't wait for more outing raya.

cheerios.

&the beauty.