you're a mystery yourself

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

9:42 PM

So many things have happen. and sometimes, i feel like blogging all in here but words just can't seem to form, and sometimes, i don't know where to start.

my darlings brothers have celebrated their birthdays. February babies. They are the ones that cracked me up regardless of how much they annoyed it beforehand. I swear sometimes it gets so hard being the eldest in the family, cause of having to take care of their little wants and needs, cleaning up after them. Previously when my mom was hospitalised, i had to blardy wake up at different timing in the wee hours of morning to get them prepared for school. making sure they eaten, get home safely, etc. i love them. My family.

my conversation with my littlest bro makes me horrified!

him: eeee kakak
me: what?
him: your leg looks like watermelon.
me: NOOOOO!!
him: you're fatter than mama already.

and because of that, i finally did it lar,

I JOINED AMORE! That is one step for me.

the other step is to actually attend all the classes available.

=]

Speaking of which, i miss my lovelies at work. my BABIs. Cause they always make me laugh non stop. Somemore, gummy was cute sia, calling me up just to say she's giddy. I hope you're feeling better. And my anak babi, pls make sure we'll go to seoul garden one fine day.

"babyboy, stay on my mind, fulfill my fantasy......." hint.

goodnighteveryone.

&the beauty.

11:19 PM

i is so damn tired.

FULL STOP

&the beauty.

11:19 PM

Sometimes my head and heart's ruled by my temper. And harsh words will be said, too honest words will be sad. Then after that, regret as guilty sets in.

"We're driving slow through the snow on fifth avenue
And right now radio's All that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left, It's so overdue
It's cold outside But between us its worse in here

i hate this part right here."

Sometimes, we get busy with our own stuffs and work. And even though we have a long relationship, it does not mean that i do not crave your attention. Cause i do. I find it depressing that its hard for you to just spare a few minutes for me, even to just talk bout nothing at all. I wished that our relationship wont succumb to those that felt so routine like.

&the beauty.

6:50 PM

Tomorrow's valentine's day.

Being the nice gf that i am, i tried to make muffins for the boy. I asked Farah for the recipe since she's like the Queen of all things sweet. and violence. hee.

And so i tried making it, i swear i was making Farah miserable by calling her at work a few times just to get it right. and there were some ingredients missing so i had to be more innovative and make do with whatever i could lay my hands on.

And the end result is................................

but then, being the greedy gf that i am, most prob i'll be the one finishing it up.

its a success.

&the beauty.

10:30 PM

i love you, muhammad syakir.

Like i love no other. =]

&the beauty.

8:16 PM

i feel damn irritated sometimes. i hate feeling weak. I hate having to be the one mostly giving in cause that makes me feel shitty sometimes. I feel that this relationship sometimes is not balanced. and i feel damn pissed off.

and i hate feeling the way i do. cause it makes me irrational.

i dont feel like speaking to you. Until you find it in your heart, to apologise to me.

&the beauty.